Tuesday, November 18, 2014

Hutch's Birth Story

Wednesday July 9th I woke up at about 6:45 am with contractions that were about 6-7 minutes apart lasting about 30-40 seconds. They felt about the same as a Braxton hicks but a little more intense. I had been having Braxton hicks pretty often the last few weeks so I wasn’t too concerned, the only reason I thought anything about it was because they woke me out of my sleep, I had never had contractions that were strong enough to do that. I sat on the edge of my bed on my birth ball listening to my hypnobirthing childbirth affirmation track and breathed through them no problem. Cj woke up at about 8:00 and asked me what I was doing, I told him I had been having contractions and timing them and they were about 6 minutes apart. He immediately got so excited and said this is probably it, I told him how common it is to have “warm up” labor before the real thing and this was probably nothing so he should still go to work, so he did. At about 9:30 I took the dogs on a walk that lasted about an hour and by the time I was finished contractions were about 5 minutes apart, lasting 40 seconds but they still weren’t very intense. I thought there was NO way I was in labor because they were so mild but on the other hand they were so consistent and not stopping. Cj came home on his lunch break at about 1:00 pm and things were still the same, he thought I should call my midwife and see what she thought. I called and since she was in the office she said just come in and get checked and we can see if you have progressed at all. I had my 39 week appointment the day before and was 3cm dilated and 75% effaced, when I went in to get checked I was at a 4.5cm and 90% effaced. I WAS IN LABOR. I still didn’t believe it and was convinced my contractions were just going to stop anytime. She told me to try and stay active and stay close since I had labored so easily to this point she didn’t want things to progress too quickly and us not necessarily know. Cj was freaking out at this point, he wanted to go home get our bags and go to the hospital. I did not, I wanted to labor at home as long as I could and I definitely didn’t feel ready to go to the hospital but wanted him to be comfortable with what was going on also. By the time we headed back home, finished packing our bags and headed back the hospital way it was almost 5:00 pm. I literally felt my body shut down on the way to the hospital, I was so nervous and knew we were going too early and I know this was the reason my labor stalled. We decided to go try and get something to eat and then go to Liberty Park to walk around. By the time we ate and went walking at the park it was almost 7:00 pm. We continued to walk for 2 hours, which ended up being 6 miles and by that point we were all over it. Contractions still continued to be the same consistency and intensity, I knew it wasn’t time to go the hospital yet, I knew they were going to tell me I was the same and that we would end up at home. Cj and my birth photographer who was with us just in case this was the real thing, told me just to go it was on the way home and at least we knew what progress, if any, I had made. We live in Riverton and were delivering at St. Marks so on the way home I decided we could just stop and they could check me, but wasn’t hopeful. When we got there they checked me and I was THE SAME. I knew it, and at this point I was discouraged and annoyed, not with my body just that I KNEW and hadn’t trusted my instincts enough to just say no and go home. My midwife called me and told me she thought I just needed to try and eat something and sleep, even for just an hour, she thought that my body would relax enough and kick back into labor. Cj and I stopped at the store on the way home and got a few last minute things, went home attempted to eat a pb&j and then we went to sleep. We fell asleep at about 11:30pm and at 2:45 am I woke up with some pretty intense contractions, this was a whole new ball game than the contractions I had been having. I knew this was it, and all my body needed was some rest. I woke Cj up and asked him to draw me a hot bath, I labored at home in the bath listening to hypnobirthing tracks and breathing through my contractions. Cj  was making sure I had a cold rag and was drinking water and stayed in the bathroom with me the whole time timing my contractions. When they reached about 2 ½ minutes apart lasting about 50-60 seconds I felt it was time to go to the hospital. More than anything I felt I needed my midwife and her support, contractions were getting intense and I needed her. We got to the hospital at about 6:00 am and my midwife was there within 20 minutes for labor support, she checked me and I was at a 6. It was progress at least, not as much as I would have thought but progress never the less. I was hooked up to the monitor for about a half hour and leaned over the bed as Cj did counter pressure on my lower back. After that I got into the Jacuzzi tub which felt AMAZING. I loved being in the water at this point in my labor. The tub was big and jetted and it felt amazing to just be able to relax. Contractions were easy to manage at this point in the tub, my midwife and Cj sat on the edge and had hands on me through every contraction helping me relax and stay focused. It was at this point in my labor I no longer wanted to listen to my hypnobirthing tracks and I just wanted to follow my instincts. I definitely know hypnobirthing helped me immensely in early labor and even the months leading up to labor helping me become prepared and relaxed. I listened to my body and the way it told me to sit, lay, move and especially how to breathe. Breathing really is the most important part of coping with contractions in my opinion; it was something I could focus on and stay relaxed. Also making noise was incredibly helpful, I wasn’t loud but would breathe in and “ooooohhhh” my breath out with a low hum. There was so much energy in my body it needed some way to escape and low humming noises was what I needed to do that. Time was a blur to me and before I knew it is was already 8:00 am I wanted my midwife to check me and I was at a 7. She said I could stay in the tub another hour but after that needed to get out and change position, my body was just so relaxed I think I was progressing slowly, not to anyone else but to me it seemed slow. At 9:00 I got out of the tub and things really got intense, I labored on my hands and knees for a while but what felt best was to face Cj and put my hands over his shoulders as he supported all my weight and my midwife did the double hip squeeze.  At 10:00 I got checked and was only at an 8, I was starting to become exhausted since I had pretty much been up since 6:45 Wednesday morning. My waters were still intact midwife could tell there was quite a bit of fluid between his head and my cervix and if she broke my waters that it would put direct pressure on my cervix and things would go much faster. I was all about it; I had been in labor 26 hours at this point and was exhausted I was pretty much falling asleep between every contraction.  It took her forever to break my waters; the sac was so strong and healthy. Once it was broken things progressed extremely fast and contractions were about every 1 minute and lasting 1 ½ minutes and were INTENSE. I told them I didn’t think I could do it any longer, I was so tired and contractions were hard. It was right then that my body had the urge to push, with that first push of my body I also had the urge to puke and right as my nurse was bringing me a bag I puked all over her, like projectile orange popsicle puke. I felt so bad but I am sure that is nothing compared to some of the things they see. My midwife wanted to check and make sure I was complete before I started pushing because it had only been about 45 minutes since my waters broke, I was complete and started pushing as my body told me to. I was on the bed using a squat bar while pushing but it was too physically demanding, I was too tired to sit and hold myself up so I laid on the bed semi reclined in a side lying position. 25 minutes of pushing with no tearing and our beautiful baby boy made his entrance into the world. Hutch Ward Nordin was born on July 10th at 11:07 am weighing 7 pounds 14 oz., 19.5 inches long. He had a head full of dark curly hair and was absolute perfection. We spent the next hour snuggling skin to skin and nursing.  I had a beautiful unmedicated birth, with just my midwife and Cj there with me. The room was always dark and quiet and everyone was respectful of our decision to have a peaceful natural birth. When I think back on this day I can’t help but get a little teary eyed, it was the most amazing life changing and empowering experience. I have a whole new respect for my body and what it is capable of. My body carried life for 39 weeks 2 days, labored and birthed him perfectly and now feeds and nourishes him. Pretty amazing if you ask me. Cj was amazing as always during my labor and was with me through every contraction helping anyway he could. I never knew I could love him as much as I do until I saw him become a father. The love he has for Hutch is amazing and I love watching them together, he is the best daddy we could ask for.


I am so thankful we hired a birth photographer and have these pictures forever to look back on and remember this day in our lives. I cherish them so much, and If you need an amazing photographer call Alicia Arlene Photography. ;) These are also in an album on my Facebook if you want to take a closer look!

Thursday, January 9, 2014

A look back at 2013...

Soooo... I know it is January 9th and I am a little late but I have been busy making a baby okay. ;)

More than anything I write these blog posts for myself, so I never forget these memories. Life happens so fast and things are always changing that memories fade overtime and this last year had too many amazing memories I never want to forget.

2013 was quite a year... I experienced hands down the best moments of my life so far, and was also thrown a few curve balls that changed my life forever. But I am so thankful for every experience, I have already grown so much from the things I have experienced this year.

I experienced death and heartache, and also watched new life be brought into the world with the births of my nephew and niece. We lost too many beautiful souls this year, I am so thankful to have so many guardian angels and to know I will see them all again one day. It's funny as I sit here and think back on the year, for every challenge or heartache I can think of, I can think of just as many happy memories. God is amazing that way, one of my favorite bible verses ever is Romans 8:28 "God promises to make something good out of the storms that bring devastation to your life." I have found this to be true over and over again.


The first thing I think of as I look back on the year is how blessed I was to be able to experience everything I did with Cj. To be able to wake up every morning, and go to sleep every night with the one you love is something to cherish and never take for granted. I always think how lucky we are to have found each other so early in life, it just means we got to love each other that much longer. <3 He is seriously my rock, my best days are always with him and he is the reason I make it through the bad days.

We both turned 21 this year, which is of course the biggest birthday of our lives. Now we can do all the things we have been doing for years already.... Really it isn't that cool. ;) But to see another birthday is always something to celebrate!

We got engaged and married a few months later, which was the start of the most amazing adventure we have ever been on. These were by far my most favorite memories of 2013. I always find myself looking at pictures of the weekend we got engaged, and of our wedding. They make me so happy, I won't go into too much mushy detail since I already have a whole blog post dedicated to just how much this all meant to me.

 Shortly after we bought a house. This is one of the things I am most thankful for this year. Our house isn't just a house, it is OUR home. This is where we will build memories with each other, and most importantly raise our family. We have already had so many firsts in that house and it will only get better, especially after July. ;)

Not too long after we got married, we found out we were expecting our first baby come July 2014. I don't really know if I can even put into words how excited we are for this. We have both always wanted to be parents and we feel so blessed to be able to have gotten pregnant with a healthy baby and to have had no complications so far. I must say that I think our baby might be the cutest thing ever.... have you seen my husband?? He is going to make me beautiful babies. Oh how I hope they get his green eyes and long dark lashes, also his contagious smile and his kind spirit. We both think it is a girl, but of course could be wrong. Only a few more weeks and we will know!!

I am thankful for another year that was filled with love, happiness, heartache, laughter, tears, family, friends, late nights, early mornings, trips, food, puppies, babies, pictures, sweet spring mornings, watching summer sunsets, smelling crisp fall air, watching the first snowfall, trying new things, dancing, singing, watching movies, softball games, being lazy, working out, camping, hunting, drinking beer, good conversation, football Sunday's, Utah games, going to the beach, kissing the one I love every single day and living life to the fullest. The good, bad and ugly. I am THANKFUL for it all.

Bring on 2014.

XoXo